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31st May 2012

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so like we’ve kissed before over dares and games and silly stuff but today you put your arm around me and kissed me for real

i loved every second of it

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21st May 2012

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hey so this girl, was my best friend. we spent so much time together last year. i think we had more sleepovers than we did nights on our own. half of my wardrobe was in her room and half of hers was in my locker. i told her everything.she was one of the first to find out about my cutting. and i was one of like 4 people to know about hers. i knew her mom and step dad well. her dad didnt like me that well tho… he thought i was sex crazed because i said i was going out for lunch with a boy… w.e

we got in little fights and even tho today were nothing more than friends we still get through everything easily. i give her props on that. she was and still is so honest about everything.. sometimes to honest but its appreciated. everyday after school we would go to her aunts hair salon which was a block away from my house at the time. and we would stay there and either eat burritos or sushi. it was fun. she was in my class, and thats how i got ot know her. the first thing she ever said to me was, “hi im katia! k-a-t-i-a, we can be friends but if you mess with me ill mess you up.” but that didnt scare me. i dont know why to be quite honest. we had ridiculous terms for anything and everything. i loved her dog. i was with her the first time she got drunk. we both were together the first time we smoked weed. she made my first kiss with the guy i loved happen. i was the one who she would vent to about literally everything.

we spent summer ‘11 together or the most part too. and for the first week of grade 8 we were always together. then the classes got all mixed up the people i spent a lot of time with the year before were back in my class, and i hated it. i wanted new firneds. not the same bs starters. so i ended up spending time with them while she got to know thepople in her class now.

and oh, i forgot the best part! she completely ditched me! it was bad enough when she didn it when we were best friends with simple plans, buyt when i needed her most, at the PRIME of my depresseion…. she wasnt there. when tio alfrdo died, and iw as crying, she didnt ask what was wrong. she asked me why i didnt tell her stuff anymore, and got mad when i said well i dont tell anyone anything anymore, not even my best friends. i think she was more hurt than mad, and when i told her that he had died she just stared at me for quite some time. then when i finally walkerd away she turned to the group of poeple she was with and went about her day like i was never evben there. thats basically how it is now. i pass her in the hyalls and she just tells me to tell someone in my class that she needs to talk to them, tells me something about class, or says nothing at all.

she said we were going tp be friend forever.

i didnt know forever had an expiration date, but i guess that date… came too soon.

i just want her to know that im sorry i didn’t try hard enough, im sorry i get so bitchy and give you every reason not to talk to me, im sorry that you still did, im sorry im sorry im sorry. there are so many promises and plans i still want to keep.

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20th May 2012

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i will continue to reblog this until it gets the notes it deserves because elephants

If your heart isn’t melting it’s because you don’t have one.

the smile on my face

TOO MUCH LOVE.

Oh my goodness.

I will reblog this every time it appears on my dash because elephants.

waving goodbye :O 🐘 i love ellies 🐘

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if you don’t reblog this you’re irrelephant.

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